What is happy?

What is happy?
Throw this question at different people & you are sure to get an array of responses. At the same time, each individual answer serves as that person's grip on on the world around them. It's each person's, "fix-it-all," to the hardships thrown at them by life.

So what happens when that is taken away? What happens when all you've been living for begins to diminish before you? What happens when that happiness is no longer there?

I myself haven't been consistently happy for quite some time now. As a result, I've sought after a variety of things I had believed & hoped would reignite my spark for life...all have failed & here I sit still waiting.

What's more, I've done all the things you're, "suppose to do," when something like this happens to you. I've been to a psychiatrist, I've gone to therapy, I take my medication &, still yet, I am not happy...actually, I'm not even close.

So now what? What do you do when you have an engine failure, tried and were unable to fix it yourself, had it looked at by several other mechanics and it still seems to be unfixable?
In life, if we were quite literally talking about a car, more than likely after the second mechanic was also puzzled you would probably be advised to trash your, "clunker," because it is obviously unfixable.
No savior pieces to revive it, no rebate, no trade-in, no nothing....you're just plain out of luck.

mie oon taas lakannu nukkumasta, ja niin paljon on tapahtunu sen jälkeen ku viimeks kirjotin.
joten en oikein tiiä mistä miun pitäs alottaa.
Sain tikit jalkaan kun peili kaatu päälle, samalla peruuntui pitkään suunnitelmissa ollut mökkireissu. Kun puhuin asiasta mein iskälle, sain kuulla tylyn mutta varman. Ei kiinnosta.

Menin sitten E.n luokse viikonlopuksi, ja lauantaina lähettiin viihteelle. Se meni ihan hyvin silloin. Mutta nyt on ilmassa selkeetä morkkiksen aiheuttamia tuulia.

Maanantaina soitettiin töistä, ei tarvii tulla ennen kun sataa seuraavan kerran. Ei siellä muuten kaikille riitä töitä. Joten nyt sitten istun lomautettuna, Yksin kotona.

Jollon on ihan liikaa aikaa omille ajatuksille.
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